I have decided not to do the half iron this year. I will do it next year.
The reasons for this are mainly financial, but also, I always knew I was going to be chasing cut off times, and would most probably come last. I didn't mind this too much when I could afford it, but now, the thought of putting myself into debt to come last and most likely have a crap day, is a very unpleasant one.
So, I will spend the next year getting better, much, much better, and will hope to be in the middle somewhere, and enjoy the thing. I may even do one somewhere else in the UK, as Aberfeldy don't give out medals! I need a medal. It seems mad to go through all that and not have something to hand round my neck.
So, next up is the Knockburn triathlon, a standard distance, the swim of which is still scaring me, so the next 6 weeks will be all about getting better at swimming.
I ran 5 miles today and the heat was horrible, I think I'll have to take a drink with me for shorter distances, then did half a mile at the pool, trying to maintain a decent stroke the entire time. I felt like I was moving faster, and my arms really ached afterwards, so I think my pull must be stronger.
And I'm definitely going to do Moray Marathon in September as well. I know I can improve my marathon time. Just having music would really help.
So I'm still doing stuff, but cheaper stuff. I'm really not very good at this sport business, it takes me ages to get better, but that's ok, as I'm very good at other things.
But I still want to be properly fit, lose weight, and improve, and to reach the highest level of fitness I can.